it has been a long time...

it's been a long time that i've not written any word in this blog...
i encounter some difficulties recently..
actually i find that i seem not like nursing very well...
the only thing i know about the nursing is that i would have job..after i graduated from my college..
and i really don't know that if i can really be a good nurse..
but i know that nursing is not my hobby..
i want to be a fashion stylist..
but unfortunely...people here are seldom dressed them fashionable just like the girls outside the runway show..or the bloggers..
if you dress yourself so fashionable..they might think that what's wrong with the girls..we just go outside to school..or to stores..is that necessary that we dress us so fashionable?
i just think that if you dress yourself well..it's a kind of polite..be comfortable to others and yourself..
so i think it's important...

and i also want to be a model's agent..
it's really hard to describe that how much i love the models..
i really love that they really have good body shape and tall enough which can all fit the designer's amazing clothes..
i want to be their agent to take them receive their jobs and arrange their show casting... 
i want to see them to walk for the big brand shows...such as Chanel, Gucci, Fendi, Lavin, Louis Vuitton, Dior...i think that would make me happier than now..

i also like to see the fashion bloggers to show what they are wearing every day..
i like them to share out their creation and fashion sparks..it's really interesting...

i want to know if i want to be model's agent....which subject i should take...and which college can offer these kind of classes...
as i know...there are not any colleges here in Taiwan offer these classes..i need someone to give me answers..

thanks you guys..XOXO
Esme Y. 99.11.26

who says you can always find a shleter whenever you're tired..

some the goods ; others the bads...


it all happened in the life...

who says that you can always find a shleter whenever you're tired...

the belief of me is getting less and less to trust this proverb...



what's the reason if you still stay by his or her side...

even he or she has done so much things to hurt you...



because you love him/her more than loving yourself...

or you just get used to it...



m...it's hard to find a shelter...

it's my conclusion...:)



SO BE STRONG!!!...



the only one person who can count on is...YOUSELF....



BE STRONG..STRONG..STRONG..!!



Esme Love & Peace

99.08.25 X.O.X.O

i don't know how to make life more fun..!

time flys...really..
but human are strange animals..
when they are busy..they have to everything..
you will think..why i have to make myself so tired...
and when you have a long vacation..
and you don't know what to do..
you will feel that : it's boring to gain so much extra time..
and i don't have any plan..i don't know how to use my summer vacation well..meaningful..and useful..
who can help me..ha..ha..??
give me some suggestions..please, guys?
have a nice day..

Love & Peace
Esme XOXO
99.7.7

ha..ha..my upcoming summer vacation..

my beloved summer vacation...
is waiting for me..
right here and right now...
i can't wait....:))

Here ...i got a big conclusion...
never just study before your exam...
it's almost impossible to get better grades...trust me...
you won't want to try that...will you??

most of my friends ...they failed at their anatomy exam...
which is very BIG THING!!...
i thought they would pass...before we took it...
and ...the consequence appeared yesterday...
I PASS....IT'S A BIG, BIG, BIG..THING...
all i want to say is..."PASS...PASS...PASS...I PASS MY ANATOMY EXAM"...
ha..ha..ha..ha..it's wonderfullllllllll!!!!

XOXO Esme
99.6.25 Love & Peace

oh..gosh...

not feel very well recently...
always can't sleep very well...
maybe i put too much pressures into myself....
really want to relaxed...
hoping someone can save me..:))

busy preparing the final exam...
it's really hard to prepare fullest...
books are one of the most scared things in the world...
i'm tired...why our education is so different...
i want to study abroad...
i have so much things to do ....
but i still want to set here to do nothing...
i thought to myself that if you have no things to do ..
that means you have plenty of time to do what you want to do...:))
that will be greattttt!!!!

do i really fall in love???
i don't think so....
love won't come to me...(i thought to myself....)
i'm satisfied with what i've got...so ....i won't desire to want more....
it's simple....
just do anything good to yourself...
anything relates to love ....it's really hard...maybe oneday...it truely happen...who knows..??

hoping everything can be better soon...:)))

XOXO
Esme Love & Peace
99.6.17

New Challenge...New Fighting...

With upcoming final exam...
i have to figure out some way to overcome all of my professional subjsts...
it' really matter!!!!
it depends on that if i will continuously stay in my apartment of my college in university...
and the main reasons which causes my anxiety are the two primary subjects...
that is "ANATOMY" & "BIOCHEMISTRY"...
they are realllllly my nightmare!!!!
especially when you totally don't get it what teachers were talking about in classes....
(i know that i should write some good and positive things in my life...but so far...my life is so good ...till the extremely nightmares ruin my wonderful time!!!)

sometimes...i'm wondering that why Taiwan's Vogue Mazagine usually use Taiwan's models on their cover??
though..i'm a Taiwanese...but i don't agree with that...
because i think that models from other countries should be better than our native models...
for example..the "position" is one of the most important things when you are shooting photographs...
but i'm tired of seeing the most beautiful models holding the same poses one after another...
they looks really "boring".whenever i open the latest Taiwan' Vouge magazine...
they just keep smiling, smiling and smiling all the time...
i wish i can see another weird  and impressive poses in the future...please....
so i want to give some comments to Taiwan's Vouge magazine...
please use models from other countries more often...they will impress me ....i think you have to put lots of effort to do that...
so..another way to solve this problem quickly is to change the cover...it's the fastest way...to show you have the ability to control the whole Taiwan's high fashion...

it's just my personal complains...ha..ha...don't take it too seriously...let's view it ina  relaxed mind....
ha..ha..they are just my feeling...and what am i doing now????


i'm WORKING in the library with so many books waiting for me to read!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD BLESS ME!!!

XOXO
Esme Love & Peace
99.6.4

Tired...

i've been working on my homework for a while...
but i don't know how to make my grades better...
some say that "studying is not the only one thing in your life"...
so don't care so much...

and i still search the true meaning of my life...
i just a freshman in new university...
i realllllly want to do some thing which are important or have meaning to me...
but i just sit there and do nothing...
and i get nervous...
i don't want to do nothing in rest of my university life..
why the education of our university soooooo different from foreign university???

eastern students still only care about their study, grades, and so on...
i feel tired at receiving almost twelve-year education in Taiwan...
can we turn study into more fun thing??

i want to find a new way to breathe..
it's so important...
i need some couragement...
hope someone can give me what i really need...

Love Peace & XOXO
Esme =] 99.5.31

Chasing model Coco Rocha's blog...

she is the model whom i see her in Taiwan website...
her birthday is September 10th...the same as mybirthday..
i'm so excited that someone is so beautiful and elegant lady has the same birthday as me...

big happy!!!

Esme XoXo


Love & Peace
99.5.17

New Bloger!!!

it's a new blog to me...
i've never used the blog of google...

XoXo Emse
Love & Peace...